Throughout the day my mind is filled with thought after thought. Over the past 3 years, in an effort to not suppress my thoughts, I verbally spoke them. This earned me the title of "peculiar" and "awkward". Many of my thoughts are meaningful to civilized conversations, but some of them are rude, hurtful, random, perverse, and all together regrettable. In my final year of living in The Compound(A house consisting of the original Doxa church plant team) I was convicted of my immaturity in the ways I chose (not) to filter my words. It's a fight to not blurt out random thoughts that come to mind and I fail in doing so at numerous points during the day; but God is truly growing me in the way I express myself externally. I praise him for it, but many of my valued thoughts are lost throughout the day.
My job allows me to think. Being a Produce Clerk is an entirely mindless job. My hands stack apples while my mind stacks thoughts. My thoughts range from, spiritual growth to financial income, praying for individuals to Lebron James, number of tiles on the ground and back to Lebron James. If overnight I could become completely obedient to God in my thought process I would want to retain everything for spiritual growth. Unfortunately I haven't woken up with that ability, and practically don't assume I will.
This blog is the way I will prayfully try to be more obedient in my thought life. I want to retain my spiritual thoughts by writing them down as they occur.
For my Growth, to God's Glory.
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